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Glucose Test

As many people know there is a glucose test during pregnancy to test the blood sugar levels/gestational diabetes. I didn’t think twice about the test and was pretty excited that my doctor’s office gives you the drink to drink at home and then come in. Really saves time! I followed all the instructions and really didn’t think the drink was that bad, I had heard horror stories, yes it’s sweet but not undrinkable. After the test again I didn’t think much about it.

I got a call the next day that I failed. WHAT? I was shocked and confused. What does this mean? How badly did I fail? I don’t eat much sugar at all how could this be. Oh and I was also told I was now anemic. Overall just a shocking phone call to me and I was totally at a loss.

I immediately started googling and reading how many women actually fail the 1 hour test but pass the three hour. This made me feel a little better but still wondering. I didn’t fail by much so I went in hopeful to pass the 3 hour test. I kept telling my husband I can’t do more needles, I can’t do more shots. That’s all I kept thinking about. After all the IVF injections and shots I just wanted a break and to not think about that kind of stuff. It was really heart breaking to me.

I went in for the 3 hour test with a total of 4 blood draws and fasting. Not a fun combination for anyone but especially a pregnant person. Luckily I have great veins and they were able to get all 4 draws, some people can’t which I am not even sure what would happen then. Also if you throw up you have to start over. I did get nauseous but I was determined to make it through, I wasn’t starting over!

 

 

I took my lap top with me and worked in the small waiting area while I went into the lab every hour for the draw.

I PASSED! I was so excited that I passed. The levels for the 3 hour test are much different windows than the one hour and honestly easier to pass.

What I learned from this is that so many people fail the 1 hour test, it is more common than you think so don’t get discouraged. Even though it is really hard not to and I did. The three hour test is much more realistic. Even with eating healthy and trying to stay focused on my health for pregnancy the baby really changes you and everything about you! (I do take iron now daily for the anemia)

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Walking and Pregnancy

As you know I love to go on a walk or hike and I have shared the benefits of walking on a regular basis before. I have continued walking though my pregnancy as well and the benefits are great for this time as well.

A lot of people can fall into laying on the couch or eliminating activity during pregnancy because, lets face it, it can be really hard. The growing belly, back pain, swelling, balance changing, exhaustion and I could go on forever but I won’t. Some days after a full day of working the last thing I want to do is walk or work out BUT pushing through will benefit me more than sitting on the couch.

Benefits of Walking During Pregnancy

  • Keeps your heart strong and your muscle’s tones
  • May assist in a shorter easier labor
  • Helps to burn calories to assist with too much weight gain
  • Helps to protect against developing gestational diabetes & preeclampisia
  • Eases constipation
  • A great way to have Me Time
  • Helps to reduce bloating and swelling
  • Improves energy, mood & posture
  • Helps you to sleep better
  • Assists in getting back in shape after giving birth

These benefits are enough reasons for me to keep moving. I try to walk at least 5 days a week and also incorporate other workouts and activity into my week. This past week I did 6 days in a row of walking at almost 10 miles.

Listen to your body and make sure you have water and a phone with you just in case you need help.

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Pregnancy Struggles

What I am about to share may not be popular or what I “should” say or feel but I don’t care. I can’t be the only one who has had these feelings. Through years of struggling to get pregnant, countless surgeries, and more mental pain then I can begin to explain this is one of the most amazing times in my life. That doesn’t mean that it hasn’t come with it’s own set of struggles.

I have felt like due to this I wasn’t allowed to complain or have negative thoughts, my husband told me that wasn’t true, that after all of it I could complain all I wanted. I appreciate that since he gets the brunt of it. However I am still very self conscious.

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The weight gain has been something very difficult for me to handle. I absolutely love my belly and the way it is growing and changing. However it isn’t the only thing getting bigger! My legs have really grown and it’s just been hard for me to deal with. The number on the scale at each appointment gives me more anxiety and stress. The doctors say the number is just fine and I look great. That isn’t what this is about, I don’t need other people to tell me I look great. It’s about me and how I feel and unfortunately it’s been so hard for me and something I wasn’t ready for.

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I am very thankful to work from home during this because when I do leave the house, even if it’s just for a walk, I get very nervous and anxious about finding something to wear. I need something that is comfortable, fits, doesn’t make me look wide, keeps my bell covered, breathes and so much more. Looking in my closet is such a difficult experience. I normally just wear the same couple pairs of shorts and few tank tops or t shirts. When I do go out there are normally tears and about 100 outfit changes but I do still go out so that is a positive.

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This pregnancy is truly a miracle and feeling her move and grow is amazing. I am very thankful she is healthy and will be here so soon but until then I am having a hard time. I am dealing with it each day and trying my best to stay healthy and be confident in who I am. This is the journey I am on and it’s ok that I have hard days and that I feel this way. It’s also ok if you have been there too.

 

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Pregnancy Activity

I know there is so much judgement in pregnancy, motherhood and just being a women in general. BUT guess what I don’t care. I am sharing my journey and part of that is staying active and working out while pregnant. I want to share what I have been doing to stay active.

**Everything I do is approved by my doctor, every pregnancy and person is different so always speak directly to your doctor**

I do a lot of walks, I try to do at least 4 a week about 1.5 miles each. It has been very hot in Texas lately so the walks can be a little more difficult to complete outside. The heat has really effected me, it slows me down and causes me to need to stop faster than normal. That is totally ok. I listen to my body and always have water with me.

I have done 28 days of Barre3. Barre is a combination of dance, pilates, yoga and muscle isolation that is a great low impact workout that everyone should try. It offers a lot of modifications for every level including pregnancy.

I am currently doing a 30 day push up challenge and focusing on weight training. Mixing it up and keeping it challenging on my body is helping me to stay active and motivated through this journey.

My focus is keeping my breathing strong and my body in the best shape I can so my delivery and postpartum go smoothly.

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Morning Sickness

I have always heard about women talking about morning sickness and one day I dreamed it would happen to me. Well it did, and boy was/is it not at all what I expected. It happens so suddenly, anytime and for me was really intense and almost violent.

I was so happy about my morning sickness! After wanting this for so long I would lay on the bathroom floor just smiling and laughing. I know that seems odd but it made me feel like it was real, like this baby was really going to happen.

I tried several different things to help me through upon the advise of other mommy’s I know. These are what worked for me. Everyone is different and different things help. For me personally I was told so many times to eat saltine’s or something similar I wanted to scream, that just didn’t help me. I know it really helps a lot of women though!

Here is what I liked!

Preggie Pop Drops. These I got at Target and loved that they were drug free and natural. So easy, just like a cough drop or hard candy. I would keep a handful on my night stand and pop them in throughout the night too.

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Sparkling Mama Fizzelixir. This was a yummy drink that allowed me to have the carbonation but without all the sugar. The ginger and citrus combo calmed my stomach and allowed me to get a little relief through the work day.

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Morning Ease Lemon Ginger. These are very similar to the Preggie Pop Drops but available at several retailers. Another lemon ginger combo that worked out great for me. Kept these in my purse and could just grab one anytime I was out and about and I just didn’t feel right.

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Sea Bands. I was most skeptical about trying these. I wore them for a while and didn’t really know if they were helping so I took them off and suddenly got a rush of morning sickness. I was like omg they work and put them back on as fast as I could. These are easy to use and a great suggestion if you don’t want to drink or eat something.

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These are the 4 products that I really liked and that worked for me. Again everyone is different but I recommend giving these a try. I am still using them all throughout my pregnancy on rough days.

 

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Pregnancy

So during my years of fertility and trying to get pregnant I did a ton of research on how to get pregnant and things a long those lines. I never actually read about being pregnant because it was such a far off dream and so unobtainable for so long. Well now that I am pregnant I am surprised by many things. I think even if you read about it you are still surprised but every pregnancy and person are different so what I am experiencing may not be what you or anyone you know did. I am sometimes embarrassed to talk about what I am going through. Then I think to myself why? I am so open about fertility why not this so here I am back to share with you what I am going through.

Since my pregnancy is through IVF for the first 10 weeks (and weeks prior to) I had to give myself a shot every night along with taking a medication 3 times a day. These were both to ensure and help keep my baby attached to my uterus. I had bruising, lumps, bleeding and pain from the injections. I also have a terrible fear of needles so this really was a difficult thing for me. (Just as it was when I did the injections for the egg retrieval)

The next thing that surprised me was the bleeding gums. I had a regular dental cleaning scheduled early on in my pregnancy and prior to me telling the hygienist she said oh you must be pregnant. I was shocked, what? She said your gums, you have pregnancy gingivitis. Until this moment I didn’t know that was a thing. I asked what I could do and she said just keep flossing and brushing your teeth after your pregnancy the hormones will reduce and the bleeding will end. So yes I do still have the bleeding and it isn’t fun. It flares up on and off.

The exhaustion in the first trimester was very surprising. I am a very scheduled person and about 2pm everyday I really thought I was going to pass out from exhaustion in the middle of my work day. I couldn’t just have a burst of caffeine so I would just push through. So most days after my work was over I would just lay on the couch unable to do much more. This was really hard for me because I like to be on the move.

My morning sickness was not in the morning, typical for many women, so randomly I would just have to run away from what I was doing. This was hard during work and if we wanted to go out and do something. I am happy to say that in the second trimester it has subsided but still occasionally happens!

I also have sharp pains in my back in the ribs. I spoke with my doctor about it and she said I am popping out my ribs. It doesn’t happen to everyone but guess what yep me. So that is really painful but she said once they are done it will go away. Here’s to hoping that is soon!

I could go on but this is what I will share for now! I just want to say that I absolutely LOVE 100% of everyone of these. I smiled every time I threw up and I get so excited by each new symptom because after all this time it makes it real.

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Announcement

If you follow me on social media you know I have some news and that is why I haven’t been posting recently. I am very excited to say that after 6+ years, many surgeries, medications, countless tests and too many shots to count we are expecting our first child! I cannot explain how amazing this is and how literally since the news it has changed me in so many ways.

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I was so extremely excited but after about five minutes I was overcome with fear. Fear of what would happen next, would I be able to carry the baby long enough to birth a sweet new baby? I still have this sense of fear that can be debilitating at times. After everything we have gone through I am almost waiting for the bad news. We are now in our second trimester and all the test have shown a healthy baby. I could not be more grateful to the team of doctors who have gotten me to this point and who will continue to care for us through the next months and years to come.

Over the next months I will continue to share our journey and I will go back to the beginning and share how it all started and when we did our embryo transfer. I have enjoyed sharing our fertility struggles and all the questions I get. So many people have struggles and getting through it is scary and lonely.

I am so happy to share with you and feel free to ask questions.

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Personal Health

If you saw my story on Instagram last Thursday I promised a full health update so here it is.

We have been on a very long journey to hopefully one day be parents. It is not a journey that I ever planned to share/be on or one that I would ever want anyone to go through. After our wedding we wanted kids right away, as you know I do not have any children, so that didn’t happen. I never thought I would have any fertility issues or this would be our journey. It has been devastating, long, unexpected, surprising and educational. I have gotten a lot of questions and this will answer some. I am not going to share everything but this is a brief portion.

While seeing my regular OBGYN we were not conceiving, so we tried ovulation kits, medication to ensure you ovulate (blood tests every month), many blood tests, invasive tests, countless ultrasounds and so much more. (I have seen my uterus more times than I can count) Everything was always normal so we just kept trying. (Hearing all the time it will happen when it’s meant to, everything happens for a reason, just be patient, when you stop trying it will happen…..) PLEASE DON’T SAY THESE THINGS TO PEOPLE! I know it is meant well but every time I hear it or someone I know with similar issues hears it, it is like a stab in the heart and brings up many emotions that you just couldn’t understand without being in this position. Ok off my tangent now.

After all these tests we finally went to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (Fertility Specialist/RE). The first office we went to was a terrible experience, we were shoved from room to room just repeating everything to MAs, Nurses and then finally a doctor who then sent us back to another nurse, never seeing the same person twice. They all told us different things, no one was on the same page and they didn’t listen to us. When we asked questions they were not happy, they clearly wanted to move us through like an assembly line. This was not the experience we were looking for.

We switched to another provider and she was amazing. Our experience completely changed. (Don’t be afraid to speak up and change physicians – you are the patient you have rights!) I had the first of many surgeries to clean out my uterus, check my Fallopian Tubes and my ovaries, who knows what else but more. During this process it was discovered that I have Stage 4 Endometriosis. This was shocking to me and my doctor as I didn’t have any pain symptoms, or at least I didn’t think I did, I have a high pain tolerance but no one was expecting to find this. After cleaning all of that out we began IVF. We have our embryos frozen and so far have not had success. I can talk further about the details of that process in a future post.

Since we moved, I again had to switch physicians, I went with a provider that my previous physician knew and she has also been wonderful. After her review of my tests and doing her own she came to the conclusion that my fallopian tubes need to be removed. This was considered in the past but they were always left in. A lot of people asked me why, as these tubes are essential to pregnancy naturally. My tubes were obstructed inside which made them hold fluid, that fluid becomes a poison and when it falls into the uterus it can harm/kill/prevent pregnancy. She feels this is why our IVF has been unsuccessful so far. I was very hopeful that during the surgery we would be able to save one of the tubes, however this was not possible as both were too far damaged from the endometriosis. Since both are gone, I am now “sterile”, I wish there was a nicer word. It means I cannot get pregnant naturally. Our only chance is through IVF.

I am recovering now and we will decide what our next steps are in the coming weeks/months. All of this is very costly and mentally draining. Each couple will have a different experience and different choices to make. There are no wrong answers. I have days where I can’t keep the tears from falling and I have days where I remember how blessed I am to even have the ability to try everything we have so far. I have a great support system and we have shared very little so far. I am happy to answer any questions.

**Endometriosis does not mean fertility issues, every woman responds differently**