Recently we have had some big changes around here. Our work schedules are a little different now that my husbands work location has changed. His commute is longer so that cuts into even more time. It’s leaving me a little stressed out, I feel like now so much more is on my shoulders that he was doing to help us.
I am so much more exhausted by the end of the day now, I have no clue how single parents to it. I give them so much applause. We also don’t have family near by to help out either. Don’t get me wrong I love every second of being a mom and I still tear up looking at her and remembering all the work that went into creating this little miracle. But back to topic….There is so much that happens in a day, so here is my current run down. Keep in mind this in only day 3 so we are still working it out.
5am-6am Baby and Mama wake up
6am-7am Getting baby ready, Mama and Dada also getting ready, packing lunches, playing trying to keep her happy while multi tasking
7am-7:45am Taking Babe to school and getting back home
7:45am-4:30pm Work (yes I have a full time job, I work from home but it’s a full day just like in an office) When I get a moment for a break I try to do laundry, vacuum, empty the dish washer, take care of the dogs, find a moment to eat, and attempt to pick anything up.
4:30pm-5:30pm Pick up Babe and get back home to start dinner
5:30pm-7:00pm Cook dinner, play, eat dinner, play, Dada comes home, play, eat, play, and get ready for bedtime.
7:00pm-9:00pm Put babe to bed, dishes, clean up kitchen, laundry, put things away, take care of dogs, try to take a moment for myself/sit, maybe have an adult conversation and the pass out to do it all again.
REPEAT. I am tired just typing that lol I am thankful for our lives and support our decisions but sometimes I feel very judged and like I haven’t done enough. There is always so much left to do and so much I feel like I should have done. I feel like no matter what I do I have failed at something. I am hoping as time goes on I adjust a little better and can get a moment to feel ok.
We all need to have a little grace with each other and not put this crazy pressure. I look at others and think man how did they do that, they make it look easy. I have no clue what they really go through so I shouldn’t compare. We all have our struggles and right now this is one of mine. Fingers Crossed I rest up tonight!