Baby · House · McKinney · Texas Life

Schedule Changes

Recently we have had some big changes around here. Our work schedules are a little different now that my husbands work location has changed. His commute is longer so that cuts into even more time. It’s leaving me a little stressed out, I feel like now so much more is on my shoulders that he was doing to help us.

I am so much more exhausted by the end of the day now, I have no clue how single parents to it. I give them so much applause. We also don’t have family near by to help out either. Don’t get me wrong I love every second of being a mom and I still tear up looking at her and remembering all the work that went into creating this little miracle. But back to topic….There is so much that happens in a day, so here is my current run down. Keep in mind this in only day 3 so we are still working it out.

5am-6am Baby and Mama wake up

6am-7am Getting baby ready, Mama and Dada also getting ready, packing lunches, playing trying to keep her happy while multi tasking

7am-7:45am Taking Babe to school and getting back home

7:45am-4:30pm Work (yes I have a full time job, I work from home but it’s a full day just like in an office) When I get a moment for a break I try to do laundry, vacuum, empty the dish washer, take care of the dogs, find a moment to eat, and attempt to pick anything up.

4:30pm-5:30pm Pick up Babe and get back home to start dinner

5:30pm-7:00pm Cook dinner, play, eat dinner, play, Dada comes home, play, eat, play, and get ready for bedtime.

7:00pm-9:00pm Put babe to bed, dishes, clean up kitchen, laundry, put things away, take care of dogs, try to take a moment for myself/sit, maybe have an adult conversation and the pass out to do it all again.

REPEAT. I am tired just typing that lol I am thankful for our lives and support our decisions but sometimes I feel very judged and like I haven’t done enough. There is always so much left to do and so much I feel like I should have done. I feel like no matter what I do I have failed at something. I am hoping as time goes on I adjust a little better and can get a moment to feel ok.

We all need to have a little grace with each other and not put this crazy pressure. I look at others and think man how did they do that, they make it look easy. I have no clue what they really go through so I shouldn’t compare. We all have our struggles and right now this is one of mine. Fingers Crossed I rest up tonight!

Fitness · Food · Health · Texas Life

2021 Goals

Here are my 2021 Goals.

  1. Focus on my overall mental & physical health by committing to 3 workouts a week minimum, being active daily, enjoying what I eat by focusing on healthy choices but not depriving myself, and taking time to allow myself to do something for me.

2. Family is my number one priority and I am going to take more time to spend with family near and far. Not allowing things to get in my way and making it happen no matter what.

3. Financial planning is something I have really been working on over the years. I have met goals in the past of paying off student loans and cars so now I want to meet with a financial planner and look to our future with a more aggressive plan to meet our family goals.

4. Support those around me the way I want to be supported. People go through a lot that no one ever knows about, we all put on a pretty picture for the world but we don’t know what is really going on. I want to give the support to my friends and family that I have needed when no one knew. I want to focus on checking in and being there no matter what.

What are your goals for the year? Share in the Comments.

Boerne · Fitness · Health · Indiana · San Antonio · Texas Life

Birthday

It happened, I would like to pretend it didn’t but it did, I turned 30. I know I know it is just a number but it’s a big number, it’s a milestone, it changes things. I hear all the lines, you look so young, your still a baby. BUT guess what people, this isn’t your life, I am allowed to feel a little sad and down about turning 30. Ugh I don’t even like looking at that number.

Why? I am sure you are wondering why this matters to me. It matters because I am a planner. When I was 20 I was that girl who had it all planned out. I wanted certain things to happen by the time I turned 30. I wanted to be in a specific area in my career, family and financially. Some of those things have happened but there are a lot of things that are not at all what I had planned. Yes, I am fully aware you can’t plan everything, believe me I have had my fair share of slaps in the face, back to reality. That doesn’t change who I am though. It doesn’t change the goals and plans I had.

I mean I live in a state I never even thought of for 20+ years of my life. I have a job I never thought of and my family isn’t what I pictured. I have dogs, that alone is shocking to my own mom. (I love them to death, I am even wearing a shirt that says #dogmom)

I love living in Texas, I have a great job and I love my family more than anything. It’s just different and sometimes when a milestone comes it makes you reflect back on the those plans and goals and I personally feel disappointed in some of them.

Some of the great things at 30 are that I am in the best shape of my life. I have found a passion for health and fitness I didn’t know I had. I have met some amazing people who have changed my life. I have explored and lived in cities that have taught me a lot about life and friendships. These things I wouldn’t change, but with the new you have to let go of the old. I have trouble with that. I have to let go of those goals the 20 year old me had and come up with some new ones at the 30 year old I am. 😦30

Life is never easy and it is never going to be. I will still make my plans an hope it works out. Everything happens for a reason and I am truly thankful for my 30 years and I am hopeful for the future.