I have always heard about women talking about morning sickness and one day I dreamed it would happen to me. Well it did, and boy was/is it not at all what I expected. It happens so suddenly, anytime and for me was really intense and almost violent.
I was so happy about my morning sickness! After wanting this for so long I would lay on the bathroom floor just smiling and laughing. I know that seems odd but it made me feel like it was real, like this baby was really going to happen.
I tried several different things to help me through upon the advise of other mommy’s I know. These are what worked for me. Everyone is different and different things help. For me personally I was told so many times to eat saltine’s or something similar I wanted to scream, that just didn’t help me. I know it really helps a lot of women though!
Here is what I liked!
Preggie Pop Drops. These I got at Target and loved that they were drug free and natural. So easy, just like a cough drop or hard candy. I would keep a handful on my night stand and pop them in throughout the night too.
Sparkling Mama Fizzelixir. This was a yummy drink that allowed me to have the carbonation but without all the sugar. The ginger and citrus combo calmed my stomach and allowed me to get a little relief through the work day.
Morning Ease Lemon Ginger. These are very similar to the Preggie Pop Drops but available at several retailers. Another lemon ginger combo that worked out great for me. Kept these in my purse and could just grab one anytime I was out and about and I just didn’t feel right.
Sea Bands. I was most skeptical about trying these. I wore them for a while and didn’t really know if they were helping so I took them off and suddenly got a rush of morning sickness. I was like omg they work and put them back on as fast as I could. These are easy to use and a great suggestion if you don’t want to drink or eat something.
These are the 4 products that I really liked and that worked for me. Again everyone is different but I recommend giving these a try. I am still using them all throughout my pregnancy on rough days.
So during my years of fertility and trying to get pregnant I did a ton of research on how to get pregnant and things a long those lines. I never actually read about being pregnant because it was such a far off dream and so unobtainable for so long. Well now that I am pregnant I am surprised by many things. I think even if you read about it you are still surprised but every pregnancy and person are different so what I am experiencing may not be what you or anyone you know did. I am sometimes embarrassed to talk about what I am going through. Then I think to myself why? I am so open about fertility why not this so here I am back to share with you what I am going through.
Since my pregnancy is through IVF for the first 10 weeks (and weeks prior to) I had to give myself a shot every night along with taking a medication 3 times a day. These were both to ensure and help keep my baby attached to my uterus. I had bruising, lumps, bleeding and pain from the injections. I also have a terrible fear of needles so this really was a difficult thing for me. (Just as it was when I did the injections for the egg retrieval)
The next thing that surprised me was the bleeding gums. I had a regular dental cleaning scheduled early on in my pregnancy and prior to me telling the hygienist she said oh you must be pregnant. I was shocked, what? She said your gums, you have pregnancy gingivitis. Until this moment I didn’t know that was a thing. I asked what I could do and she said just keep flossing and brushing your teeth after your pregnancy the hormones will reduce and the bleeding will end. So yes I do still have the bleeding and it isn’t fun. It flares up on and off.
The exhaustion in the first trimester was very surprising. I am a very scheduled person and about 2pm everyday I really thought I was going to pass out from exhaustion in the middle of my work day. I couldn’t just have a burst of caffeine so I would just push through. So most days after my work was over I would just lay on the couch unable to do much more. This was really hard for me because I like to be on the move.
My morning sickness was not in the morning, typical for many women, so randomly I would just have to run away from what I was doing. This was hard during work and if we wanted to go out and do something. I am happy to say that in the second trimester it has subsided but still occasionally happens!
I also have sharp pains in my back in the ribs. I spoke with my doctor about it and she said I am popping out my ribs. It doesn’t happen to everyone but guess what yep me. So that is really painful but she said once they are done it will go away. Here’s to hoping that is soon!
I could go on but this is what I will share for now! I just want to say that I absolutely LOVE 100% of everyone of these. I smiled every time I threw up and I get so excited by each new symptom because after all this time it makes it real.
So to go back to the beginning of this baby’s journey….I shared with you in January I was having surgery to remove my Fallopian tubes after they were too damaged from Endometriosis. My RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) was confident this would make the change we needed to carry our child. I was terrified because to conceive naturally you must have these tubes, this would take away any slim chance I had to conceive on our own. With my husbands support everything with the surgery went well and as of January 25 I was diagnosed sterile.
After recovering from surgery we were able to start the medication to prepare for an embryo transfer on February 14. Valentine’s day is my favorite holiday so I thought this was a great sign. We transferred our embryo on March 7 and this is a day I will never forget. It was very different then the last transfer we did (that was not successful). We were both much calmer, we were laughing in the room waiting for our procedure and the staff made us stay calm and were so excited. During the procedure I squeezed my husbands hand so hard and he was telling jokes (if you know him this is all he does) I was laughing and the doctor was also.
We could see our embryo before it was placed in the needle and could see it was already hatching out of the shell which was an amazing sign. During the first transfer I shook uncontrollably the entire time from nerves and this time I didn’t. Which made me feel so much better. It is so amazing to be able to have your partner in the room with you and we were able to see the embryo being placed into my uterus.
The next 10 days are the hardest! We didn’t take any tests at all during this time, some people do, but we wanted to wait for the definitive blood test done at the RE’s office. After the blood test I did do an at home test and it was the first time I had ever seen a positive result. I was elated and immediately called my husband at work!
If you follow me on social media you know I have some news and that is why I haven’t been posting recently. I am very excited to say that after 6+ years, many surgeries, medications, countless tests and too many shots to count we are expecting our first child! I cannot explain how amazing this is and how literally since the news it has changed me in so many ways.
I was so extremely excited but after about five minutes I was overcome with fear. Fear of what would happen next, would I be able to carry the baby long enough to birth a sweet new baby? I still have this sense of fear that can be debilitating at times. After everything we have gone through I am almost waiting for the bad news. We are now in our second trimester and all the test have shown a healthy baby. I could not be more grateful to the team of doctors who have gotten me to this point and who will continue to care for us through the next months and years to come.
Over the next months I will continue to share our journey and I will go back to the beginning and share how it all started and when we did our embryo transfer. I have enjoyed sharing our fertility struggles and all the questions I get. So many people have struggles and getting through it is scary and lonely.
I am so happy to share with you and feel free to ask questions.