What I am about to share may not be popular or what I “should” say or feel but I don’t care. I can’t be the only one who has had these feelings. Through years of struggling to get pregnant, countless surgeries, and more mental pain then I can begin to explain this is one of the most amazing times in my life. That doesn’t mean that it hasn’t come with it’s own set of struggles.
I have felt like due to this I wasn’t allowed to complain or have negative thoughts, my husband told me that wasn’t true, that after all of it I could complain all I wanted. I appreciate that since he gets the brunt of it. However I am still very self conscious.
The weight gain has been something very difficult for me to handle. I absolutely love my belly and the way it is growing and changing. However it isn’t the only thing getting bigger! My legs have really grown and it’s just been hard for me to deal with. The number on the scale at each appointment gives me more anxiety and stress. The doctors say the number is just fine and I look great. That isn’t what this is about, I don’t need other people to tell me I look great. It’s about me and how I feel and unfortunately it’s been so hard for me and something I wasn’t ready for.
I am very thankful to work from home during this because when I do leave the house, even if it’s just for a walk, I get very nervous and anxious about finding something to wear. I need something that is comfortable, fits, doesn’t make me look wide, keeps my bell covered, breathes and so much more. Looking in my closet is such a difficult experience. I normally just wear the same couple pairs of shorts and few tank tops or t shirts. When I do go out there are normally tears and about 100 outfit changes but I do still go out so that is a positive.
This pregnancy is truly a miracle and feeling her move and grow is amazing. I am very thankful she is healthy and will be here so soon but until then I am having a hard time. I am dealing with it each day and trying my best to stay healthy and be confident in who I am. This is the journey I am on and it’s ok that I have hard days and that I feel this way. It’s also ok if you have been there too.
I have had this dresser since my first apartment out of college. I purchased it at Goodwill for $25.00. Perfect for the situation and fresh out of college life. Well now it hasn’t been used much and doesn’t match anything we have, but it has moved countless times and offers a great amount of storage. With baby on the way it was the perfect time to refinish it and save some money buying furniture.
I took one weekend to remove the hardware, sand the drawers and paint them. I haven’t ever done a piece of furniture before so I thought it was safe to try it out on the drawers, smaller surface to fix if I messed up. They turned out pretty great so the next weekend I did the dresser unit itself.
I cannot tell you enough how much I do not like sanding! I did it all by hand and ugh was it exhausting. BUT worth it in the end.
After the painting was done I got new hardware to add some personality. The top round crystal pulls are from HomeGoods and are Rachel Roy brand, the silver long ones are from Lowe’s. I think they compliment each other and look great but not too flashy. The different colors in her room reflect in the crystals and it looks so sweet.
I could not be happier with how it turned out and saved some money we can use on other items for the baby!
I know there is so much judgement in pregnancy, motherhood and just being a women in general. BUT guess what I don’t care. I am sharing my journey and part of that is staying active and working out while pregnant. I want to share what I have been doing to stay active.
**Everything I do is approved by my doctor, every pregnancy and person is different so always speak directly to your doctor**
I do a lot of walks, I try to do at least 4 a week about 1.5 miles each. It has been very hot in Texas lately so the walks can be a little more difficult to complete outside. The heat has really effected me, it slows me down and causes me to need to stop faster than normal. That is totally ok. I listen to my body and always have water with me.
I have done 28 days of Barre3. Barre is a combination of dance, pilates, yoga and muscle isolation that is a great low impact workout that everyone should try. It offers a lot of modifications for every level including pregnancy.
I am currently doing a 30 day push up challenge and focusing on weight training. Mixing it up and keeping it challenging on my body is helping me to stay active and motivated through this journey.
My focus is keeping my breathing strong and my body in the best shape I can so my delivery and postpartum go smoothly.
I have always heard about women talking about morning sickness and one day I dreamed it would happen to me. Well it did, and boy was/is it not at all what I expected. It happens so suddenly, anytime and for me was really intense and almost violent.
I was so happy about my morning sickness! After wanting this for so long I would lay on the bathroom floor just smiling and laughing. I know that seems odd but it made me feel like it was real, like this baby was really going to happen.
I tried several different things to help me through upon the advise of other mommy’s I know. These are what worked for me. Everyone is different and different things help. For me personally I was told so many times to eat saltine’s or something similar I wanted to scream, that just didn’t help me. I know it really helps a lot of women though!
Here is what I liked!
Preggie Pop Drops. These I got at Target and loved that they were drug free and natural. So easy, just like a cough drop or hard candy. I would keep a handful on my night stand and pop them in throughout the night too.
Sparkling Mama Fizzelixir. This was a yummy drink that allowed me to have the carbonation but without all the sugar. The ginger and citrus combo calmed my stomach and allowed me to get a little relief through the work day.
Morning Ease Lemon Ginger. These are very similar to the Preggie Pop Drops but available at several retailers. Another lemon ginger combo that worked out great for me. Kept these in my purse and could just grab one anytime I was out and about and I just didn’t feel right.
Sea Bands. I was most skeptical about trying these. I wore them for a while and didn’t really know if they were helping so I took them off and suddenly got a rush of morning sickness. I was like omg they work and put them back on as fast as I could. These are easy to use and a great suggestion if you don’t want to drink or eat something.
These are the 4 products that I really liked and that worked for me. Again everyone is different but I recommend giving these a try. I am still using them all throughout my pregnancy on rough days.
I chose to register for our little one with Baby List. I did this because I don’t like what one or two stores have to offer and Baby List allows me to register for anything anywhere. It is so easy, there is a button at the top of my browser and I simply click “add to babylist” and boom done.
When viewing the list it’s just like any other registry with all the items organized by type BUT it also shows the different stores and prices you can purchase the item, including amazon and websites.
I have been searching different items online and when I find the one I want I simply add it to the list. When I started my registry I got a free Hello Baby Box from Baby List that had many sample products in it for me to try. I really like this feature because as a first time mom it opens my eyes to different brands and products I may not be aware of. It also allows me to try things before committing. The box also comes with cards you can put in a shower invitation and you can get more for free on the list as well.
Give it a try and let me know what you think.
The Noobie Box is a free, yes free, pregnancy box that provides samples of products that are great for mom’s to be. The box does change over time and currently below is what I got in mine.
- Aquaphor Baby Ointment
- Bioderma Atoderm Intensive Baume
- Chicco Pacifist
- Cuties set of 5 diapers
- Lansinoh breastfeeding set (nursing pads, milk storage bags and lanolin),
- UpSpring Milkflow Powder drink mix
- Prevail set of 2 liners
- WaterWipes baby wipes.
They also offer Baby Gift Boxes & Parent Gift Boxes. Each box is catered to the age of the baby/child which offers activities and products that are great for the growing little one. You can get a subscription or purchase a single box.
BUT don’t miss out on getting the FREE pregnancy box. See the link below, just pay shipping.
I recommend getting yours because why not? It is a great way to find out about products and try them out before committing to a full case or something you will not use. As a first time mom is it so nice to find out different brands and products because I have no clue to where to start on most things.