It happened, I would like to pretend it didn’t but it did, I turned 30. I know I know it is just a number but it’s a big number, it’s a milestone, it changes things. I hear all the lines, you look so young, your still a baby. BUT guess what people, this isn’t your life, I am allowed to feel a little sad and down about turning 30. Ugh I don’t even like looking at that number.
Why? I am sure you are wondering why this matters to me. It matters because I am a planner. When I was 20 I was that girl who had it all planned out. I wanted certain things to happen by the time I turned 30. I wanted to be in a specific area in my career, family and financially. Some of those things have happened but there are a lot of things that are not at all what I had planned. Yes, I am fully aware you can’t plan everything, believe me I have had my fair share of slaps in the face, back to reality. That doesn’t change who I am though. It doesn’t change the goals and plans I had.
I mean I live in a state I never even thought of for 20+ years of my life. I have a job I never thought of and my family isn’t what I pictured. I have dogs, that alone is shocking to my own mom. (I love them to death, I am even wearing a shirt that says #dogmom)
I love living in Texas, I have a great job and I love my family more than anything. It’s just different and sometimes when a milestone comes it makes you reflect back on the those plans and goals and I personally feel disappointed in some of them.
Some of the great things at 30 are that I am in the best shape of my life. I have found a passion for health and fitness I didn’t know I had. I have met some amazing people who have changed my life. I have explored and lived in cities that have taught me a lot about life and friendships. These things I wouldn’t change, but with the new you have to let go of the old. I have trouble with that. I have to let go of those goals the 20 year old me had and come up with some new ones at the 30 year old I am. 😦
Life is never easy and it is never going to be. I will still make my plans an hope it works out. Everything happens for a reason and I am truly thankful for my 30 years and I am hopeful for the future.